The Missy Avenue

2009-02-08T07:46:00.001-08:00

i ve moved back to lj. :)

I mean..

2009-02-03T19:21:00.000-08:00

its really kinda disappointing and disheartening when there s only talk and no actions.
i think life is kinda going back to two months back when its all about work and sleep again.
what all i think about now is just do and do well what i am supposed to do*.

*This clause only applies for ops.
I cant wait to go back to school lah.
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On a lighter note,
i finally met up with girlies on Mon, and it was then i realised i hasn seen minhui for more than a month, hasn seen qi for 1 month, hasn seen chris for 3 months! and miao and jol for a couple of weeks ! chichi, still has no luck of meeting her. haha. i guess everybody is kinda busy and all and days seems to be passing by extremely fast! (i have not once not meet qi for a month the past 7 years i think). but it was an enjoyable dinner with girlies, had fun and laughed alot.

see you girls again soon!
(and me jol and minhui may be celebrating our twenty first tgth holding a big party! ) :)

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i think jx is kinda angry with me.
haven heard from him at all these days,
he used to be the first one to call me on days like xmas, newyear, cny.
it feels kinda strange.
aiyah, maybe i should just initiate a text someday.

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looks like i m on long leave coming week.

Happy CNY!

2009-01-27T07:28:00.000-08:00

isnt it super fast?

within two blinks its already the second day of CNY.

like usual, visitings and visitings,

steamboats and stemboats! haha,

but i guess i m happy with my angbaos collection! haha.

eve of cny eve dinner at granny's;

see, there's 3 steamboats of different flavours to choose from.

arent we very lucky kids?

but then, its a very reunion dinner night.

we even made fun of granny;

haha, credits to jun; :)

cny eve,

its a heart-warming dinner at home with my fam of four.

and we went to Loyang TPG after that for prayers for the new year,

i didn even know the place moved, i think its been some time since i last been there.

but anyway, i think its the animal thing in me,

i really wanna share about this lucky and auspicious cow that they brought to add in to the moo-year mood;

look at this cow, whats diff?
it has no black spots!

its pure white! and yes, its a super rare albino cow.

i was really amazed when i saw it.

so,i slept really late both nights.

cny day 1

tpy-simei-tpy.

had a few plans with friends in the night,

gooutwithweicong,clubbingwithqi or godarrenhse,

i was deciding between the three,

but i ended up staying at home watching tv,

i just feel rather, homey, feel like avoiding the crowds.

cny day 2,

had our usual dad's family culture,

where we all (everybody from dad side) will come together to go each family house and play three sets of three cards black jack and then on to the next house,

i guess its a culture already, we do this every year.

darren, zc and juliana dropped by in the evening to bai nian to dad and mum.

i think its a forming culture as well. haha.

unglam us; me and jun.

unglam 2! haha,

unglam three! haha, plus my AA dad! :P

okay and finally,

Happy CNY everybody!

and eveybody keep asking wheres your bf,

wheres the guy last year,

hello,

where got guy last year!

i just celebrated my 365 days of singlehood few days ago! haha.

i guess all these years,

i m kinda jaded and tired already.

in fact i think i m already kinda getting used to the single life,

where you dont have to be responsible or answerable to anybody.

someone once told me,

even if its being alone, its definitely a better feeling.

actually i cant agree more now.

or maybe just sometimes,

i really do still think about you.

but its just a different kind of feeling that is hard to comprehend.

but then,

i think since the start of 2009, i have become a lil happier,

i find myself smiling and laughing more than i ever did in 2008.

okay luh,nites.

Lack of updates.

2009-01-16T09:08:00.000-08:00

Reason being i was too tired and i m sick and i need rest. i m voice-less. i ve been ee-ee-aw-aw a few days already!

but here are two scream factors i would like to share:

1) i had a complete change of hairstyle today! (OKAY SCREAM (ESP LIMRUITING I KNOW YOU CANT WAIT, HAHA, CURIOUS? NO! I M NOT GG TO POST ANY PHOTO YET, YOU SHALL SEE FOR YOURSELF, HAHA)

2) the flight has been booked! me and mum will be on the plane to HONGKONG on 13th Feb 2008. 6 DAYS. =D (its true i m avoiding dates, but its the 16th not the 14th) PS:anybodyhasanyrecommendationstellmeokay!

3) my mum actually thought it would be perfect for me to hold my 21st in a club. lol.

-haha.
and now for some not so happy things;

sometimes its tough being in a middle position sandwiched, when you cant offend both sides, when you dont want to disappoint both sides, when you are force to take side, when you hope you dont have to do it, yet there's no way you can shun it, you think you can face it, but you hope you can avoid it, both sides of my hand are equally important, and i really dont want to lose any sides. yet, its almost impossible to get support from both side. sometimes we work and work, we think and think, we get stressed out, we get all the shit, only to earn back un-understanding minds who thought we love to do what we have to do.

sometimes i just think,
is it worth doing so much for people who doesn know your efforts?

work has been crappy, i hope we ll get through it. lets hope its not all for nothing.

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2009-01-07T09:36:00.000-08:00

someone just gave me an open cheque, with a signature signed but amount left blank.

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its been a long three hours of information and inspirations overload i dont know how i should start saying.

hais.

first post of the year.

2009-01-07T02:26:00.000-08:00

i have been wondering what to write for the first entry of the year.
as much as i would like to tell you what a happening new year eve and day i had,
i guess i would skip it, i m feeling kinda lazy. haha.

i m blogging because, i have a few dearest people who are going through a rough time now, and i just want to let them know i ll be here for them.

the first one is of cos the liveliest girl in my clique,
who has just broken up with her longest-ever, serious-ever love of her life, haha,
you know how much we love you without telling you,
even though he is really gorgeous, but you know you are just as gorgeous and you would have no problem finding someone else just as gorgeous.
so dont do anything to hurt yourself in anyway, cause it hurts us to seeing you doing that, silly!
xoxo. :)

the second one is like a brother i never had.
he s a total 180 degree changed person from who he was before he met this gf.
and he s by the far the only person i have seen who have changed so much in lifestyle because of their partner.
and that is why i truly understand how difficult it was for you going through this.
even though you say its okay, but i know you hurt like shit inside,
i can tell it from your text and your words,
but you know we love you too :)
you are doing great darling, really.

and of cos a very important guy friend in my life,
who was there for me during my lowest for the past two years,
who has been my moral support for a long time,
i m so glad you finally found yourself back, back to the know what you want you want in life track,
i always thought you kinda float ard these three years, like you feel empty inside,
but well, just to remind like what you remind those times,
nobody quits on nobody. :)

i m sure i wouldn have to mention names and these people will know i m refering to them. <3

2008 Confessions

2008-12-30T08:19:00.000-08:00

okay. i doubt i will be at home to blog this tomorrow;

i want thank the following people for their significant exsistence in my life; (in order of importance)
-my fam
-qi
-minhui, miao
-paul
-rui ting
-keat hwee
-min shan
-wei cong
-jolene
-ngiamky
-chris, chichi

and these amazing people who i know/know better this year, and who have once/always brought me laughters;
-bingcai, liang
-jenna
-jasmine, michelle
-marilyn
-chef tan
-partying kakis: ting, bronson, hannah, tommie
-clement and desmond
-alan and beef
-ops guys

i hope i din miss anybody out here.
and of cos people who used to be close and i wish i spent more time with sometimes;
-jun xiong
-zhi cheng
-angeline, joseph
-robin and terr and gang
-suiren

and well, my short and sweet 2008 confessions;
-its a year of hard parteying for the first half of the year, and i get wasted 3 outta 5 times
(though amazingly(qi-lol) am still able to get home somehow)
-i broke up, was upset, still am upset
-i lost three wallets and 1 phone in less than 2 months
-i failed my first basic theory test
-i can swim now with two strokes and tread water
-i read more books this year as compared to last year
-i went on a holiday to bkk with my own money this year
-i became total financially independent
-i spent alot more time with my fam
(this is something i m super proud of. haha.)
-i have been rather homey for the second half of the year, late nights out-seldom
-bad thing, my girlies say i become quieter
-good thing, bcos i shutup and listen
-i graduated from my dip this year
-i have got my article published on vita this year
-i met alot of fun people this year
-i wished i spent more time with jx, actually i feel guilty towards him bcos i know sometimes he really needs to talk to me yet i dont really want to listen to him talk because it always emo stuffs, and i m emo enough.
-i met up with primary school friends who i haven seen for nearly 8 years
-i ve got my own keyboard and i can play four songs now

okay. so pretty much.
and my resolutions for this year;
-change my hair style
-forget that lester ever existed in my life
-start school, start my degree
-get my diving license
-and my driving license
-go to another country
-cahoooooots
-lose fats
-get more tanned
-be more firm, be less nice to people
-learn how to get more organized
-start talking more

okay. i think thats about that, i need to sleep now because i wil be staying up the whole night tomorrow.

another 19 hours to PARTYING! :)

nights!

LIFE CANT GET ANY BETTER THAN THIS. I SWEAR.

2008-12-28T04:58:00.000-08:00

I KNOW I REALLY SHOULDN SWEAR BUT I SO FUCKING UNLUCKY AND UNFORTUNATE CAN. TELL ME WHICH IDIOT (OTHER THAN ME) ON THIS EARTH HAS THE ABILITY TO ACTUALLY LOSE THREE WALLETS IN LESS THAN 2 MONTHS! I BLOODY GO JOGGING AT STADIUM ALSO CAN BE PICK-POCKETED. WHAT THE F. I THINK I M THE TYPICAL VERY UNLUCKY PERSON THIS YEAR (THOSE YOU SEE IN DRAMA-GO BUS STOP, BUS GO OFF, FRIEND STEPPED YOUR SHOES SHOES SPOIL (2 TIMES), GO CLUB LOST HANDPHONE, GO JOGGING PICKPOCKETED, THUMBDRIVE DIE ON YOU, COMPUTER KANA VIRUS THAT KIND OF THING), I AM SERIOUS WHEN I TELL YOU I ONLY LEFT NOT GETTING CHOKE ON FISHBALLS. THATS ALL.

URGH.

okay. i ll be a lil nice. thank you for taking only my two wallets (leaving my two phones intact), will you kindly return me my NRIC. (AND I LL BLOODY STOP CURSING YOU).

THANKS VEH MUCH.

Guess what i did for Christmas!

2008-12-26T04:16:00.000-08:00

It must be disappointing because i stayed home the whole day on Christmas Day! Christmas eve? Nah! I stayed in as well, the only celebration i had was bbq at home with extended fam. Though it was nothing as havoc as previous years, i though the bbq was very heart warming and enjoyable, and i said no to alot of friends partying plans (because i m too sleepy to go anywhere, those who saw me on xmas eve will know i look like shit-a walking zombie)! Seriously, i cant get anymore sleep-deprived ever.

Pictures below;

wenliang looks kinda constipated here; haha.my two good friends in pri school.

tuckhong& jo(dont they look compatiable)haha;

the ps-girlies at lunar (ps pre-xmas party)!

us with chef ben. swc-staff welfare committee.and thank yous for all the christmas prezzies!
and i love this two the most;

new hippo (adding on to my collection) from liang and rui;

my favorite vampire! (haha, you are impossible jasmine!)

and look at the words carefully! haha. (thanks dear, these are things money cant buy:))okay. i m off. MERRY CHRISTMAS-ed everyone!
if you hadn notice, the photo below is tanhuikee-inspired. haha.

Stupified.

2008-12-20T08:57:00.000-08:00

i felt my heart stopped two times within twentyfourhrs.
the first time was when qi show me the message the miao texted her when the movie was starting ytd,
though i sounded very so-it-doesn-really-concern-me,
at that moment, i could really feel the stinging pain, grasping for air,
and though i was staring straight at the big screen for that first few minutes,
i feel like i was somewhere very far, trying very hard to get myself composed,
and i finally got relaxed only when the girls behind me started their giggles.(ireallythankthemforthat)

and today,
just so very randomly i saw his friends while i was going up the escalator with jo,
i think his friend eye caught me that instant,
and i immediately looked away grasping for air letting the pain sink in again
and i told jo to just keep talking to me.

dont ask me why,
i dont even have any explanation for the sinking heart ache,
its suffocating.
i really should have just stayed at home.

Slow Night.

2008-12-18T07:18:00.000-08:00

Just came back from dinner with suiren at Fisherman Wharf,
its my second visit there (the first time that i went there was also around this time last year),
its just a lil different this time because it was less crowded,
and tonight just feels like the very night to chill and relax,
and amazingly, i seems not to get to tired of fish and chips,
i had fish n chips with rui at swensens ytd.
it was a nice night with suiren,
though we kinda only arrange for the meetup ytd,
just like the last time i saw him,
its alot of catching up and remembering who was in our class thing.
haha, but yea, i enjoyed the slow night. :)

i dont know, somedays i m emo, someday i m not emo.
i think it goes the same for everyone,
everyday is just kinda same until someone who somehow made/spoil your day isnt it.
but i guess when you are working, you are more prone to ppl spoiling your day. haha! =X

come to think of it,
i feel as strong for what happened in new moon,
just that things are different.

i ve got a thousand cant comprehend confused emotions running through me everyday.
this is what it is.

With Christmas round the corner.

2008-12-13T22:55:00.000-08:00

dearest jenna/jasmine/michelle/rui,

whoever that got my name;

here's what i wish for:

Jay Chou Capricorn Album (the one that comes with the 2009 table calendar).

okay. i have finished the twilight saga.

seriously, the books are not enough to quench my thirst.

i bet i ll still be dazzled by edward for a few more weeks. haha.

so many personal agendas to hit coming 2 weeks.

-making a trip down to SIM to complete my registration

-getting xmas prezzies for my girlies

-twilight with qiruilyn

-meeting jo and wenliang (i haven seen him in 8 years)

-meeting alan and guang (unfortunately, both meetups(jolandwl) fall on the same date now=( )

-meeting jenna and girls for early xmas celebration

-twilight with des

-christmas eve bbq with fam

-christmas day dinner with ngiamky

so i m occupied 9 days outta 14 already.

Weary.

2008-12-10T19:39:00.001-08:00

i just feel weary and sleepy,
i fell asleep on the sofa at 8+ ytd and i didn wake up till 8+ today.
almost 12 hours yet i still feel my heavy eyelids.

and i lost my appetite these few days.

two things i really feel like doing these days;
1)put on my mp3 and go run, feeling the breeze against my heated cheeks
2)sitting by the river/sea or whatever and feeling the breeze while i stare into nothingness

absurd isn it.

Yes. Looking for a vampire bf.

2008-12-03T02:28:00.000-08:00

Just like many others,
i ve got hooked to twilight,
jun bought the books a few weeks back,
and i dont understand why she ll drop tears while reading a fiction book,
now i understand,
somehow you will feel your heartaching many a times,
and then you ll find yourself smiling silly-ly at the book,
and you cant stop yourself reading it into the wee hours because you are so intrigued by the story.
and so, i m reading the next sequel to twilight now, New Moon.
in fact i cant wait to go home and lie on my bed and contd where i left edward and bella.
haha. :)

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yesterday i went to visit uncle at the columbarium ,
the moment i walk towards his pic,
tears have already swell in my eyes,
its been a year since he's gone and yet we are still feeling the pain,
i still see mum,grandma and aunt eyes turn red everytime whenever they talk about him,
yet the pain i felt when i see his photo was not that he left,
it was more like he s not here pyhsically with us anymore.
we miss you.

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finally i found one song i like from jay's new album-Gei wo yi shou ge de shi jian.

till then. :)

Good and Bad.

2008-11-29T21:13:00.000-08:00

have been feeling rather homey since last sat outing with keat and shan.
they came to drive me at workplace
den we headed to aston for dinner.
many people have recommended me the place,
but it was my first time there.
well. its quite value for money if you ask me.
but i think it still lacks of some food presentation.
den we headed to vivo,
wanted to catch a movie but ended up just having desserts at earle swensens.
candy empired and keat drove us home.
like usual,
we had fun in our own way.

so things were rather routine for the past one week,
i go to work, go home after work, watch tv, sleep.
of cos except on thurs when i have swimming classes.
its really kinda embarrasing to swim in pyjamas at my age. haha.
maybe i have seen too many kids doing that,
but well. START FROM SCRATCH.

so yesterday,
jun accompanied to SITEX to get my VAIO.
had actually wanted to get the white one,
but there was no more stock left,
so i got the black one,
there were quite alot of throw ins, like antivirus, wirelessmouse,cleaningkit,cooler,upgrade of RAM etc.
kinda worth it lah.
den we headed to NUBOX BY NEWSTEAD,
APPLE AUTHORIZED RESSELLER to get my lappy skin,
there's only one word to describe the service, TERRIBLE.
seriously i seldom get angry at other people service,
but the service i get from them is really f-up.

what happened was...
firstly i have to approach this guy to ask him help me find the correct size for the skin i wanted,den he said he was unsure and ask me go find his colleague, (HELLO, SHOULDN YOU DIRECT SOMEONE WHO WAS OF ASSISTANCE TO ME)den finally he directed someone to me and the second guy asked me to wait for half an hour because he is busy right now and he dont have the time to look for the stock, den nevermind, i chose another skin to avoid the hassle, and when i was paying, they only have one cashier and the girl was like so obessed in closing her ipod sales and i kept waiting there like an idiot (HELLO,YOU COULD HAVE TOLD ME WAIT A MOMENT OR PROCCESS MY ORDER BECAUSE I M ONLY PAYING FOR A FIFTY DOLLAR SKIN AND IT WOULD HAVE TAKE YOU LESS THAN A MINUTE). den jun finally couldn stand it i told another guy, you only have on cashier? how long do we have to wait. DEN THAT STUPID GUY THAT WAS SITTING AT THE CASHIER JUST NOW HAPPILY TALKING CAME TO PROCESS MY ORDER AND TELL US SORRY THEY ARE BUSY, (HELLO,YOU WAS SITTING AT THE CASHIER HAPPYIL CHATTING), jun said the cashiergirl stared at us when i was paying for the skin. overall, it was a very unpleasant experience i had with Newstead. Had actually wanted to get a ipod nano and was planning to get from them since we do alot of events for Newstead and find the bosses quite nice. But its sad that they do not have such passionate workers. THERE. They lost one potential prospect and maybe more because like good things advocate, bad things advocate as well.

i have to go,
i have a messy room to clean up now.
hopefully the weathers get sunnier in the evening so that i can go sun bathing.:)

and happy bday (yesterday) yan!

Country Road take me home.

2008-11-29T21:02:00.001-08:00

i took this picture last thurs on my to swimming lessons. doesn the sky contrast so well with the skyscrapers?
i wished my camera was with me then.

New dumping ground.

2008-11-27T19:04:00.000-08:00

Welcome to my new dumping ground :)
but i ll still be keeping my previous livejournal account,
so that i can stalk on minshan and some others who have private entries.(haha)
guess the reason for a brand new start is quite oblivious to some.
somethings need to be put aside and left behind someday.
and yesterday happens to be the day.
and i realise my html skills are still kinda intact,
perhaps its because of FOD in the past.
so do relink me!
or leave a tag

(all the anonymous readers out there-Khookeathweeandalanngiknowyoutwoareoneofthose)
but that is when i get my tag board up.